life

meaning of life to the family i interviewed, MR.B said his family & kids were the meaning to his life.......for me its nani....id like the whole world to know tt.

i just like to take this opportunity to mention tt nobody's perfect, everyones got a flaw or two or mebbe more and everyone had done something wrong at least once in their lifetime. so i guess, its just right to forgive and forget.....but damn u sometimes the forgetting part is so damn hard to do. tts not the point. the point is everyone is somehow given mistakes to learn from it......after that everyone involved in it gets better with life and so on....dont u think so?

hmmm....back to my daily life......hmmm i find tt ive made a music transition.....im now enjoying more emo, hardcore scremo kinda thing....to get u a better idea, think love me butch, a vacant affair, nothing to declare.....and sometimes real ol skool hardcore, integrity.....i dunno probably its the school environment, i need tt energy vibes to last me for 9hours of school each day......so the screaming and the distortions really wake me up when my eyes are 3/4 shut.....anyways i think syarul's voice is wonderful........

i was chatting with my classmate yah nee, we talked abt how we finally became nurses. hehehe i think im rather fated....i think this is my destiny.....siak ar cam orang tua2 sak....hahaha.....bt then im 27 oredi..... ok back to my destiny....first of all, 3 of my aunties are nurses!, my cousin is a nurse, the girl i use to date is a nurse, hmm so i guess it runs in the family excluding the girl....and....i was a st john's member back in school, well for a year only hahaha......then in NS, i was a combat medic through out till now.......see, tts why...i say mebbe im fated.....
i was thinking too, i badly wanted to become a teacher but refused....tt too has got some family thingy i guess, my grandfather was a teacher, my uncle is a teacher...
haha but ultimately, its the stability, the career, the chance to work with ppl, the opportunity for overseas employment, the chance for a probable migration....i still want to live the dream of having a family living comfortably one day in a big house, with my fav scooter in a room, a volkswagen beetle or minibus parked below or a those mini sports car....i want to be able to provide the best for my future family, i want my son to have a perfect bringing up, and ultimately make my mother proud, i love my mother....

speaking of working with ppl, yah-nee asked why i enjoyed teaching, i said the kids, i enjoyed working with kids and she said i should volunteer for club rainbow, i think i will in the coming vacation....it will be an eye opener and helps u to be not so selfish in life and think about urself and ur gains only...seriously after i took up nursing, i feel tt i have improved a little to become a better person....slightly i guess but seriously, i tend to care about ppl feelings more.....like my frens example, im less temperamental lately....im much more calm....if any one pisses me off, i think back why he or she behaves in such a way and wat would be the reason and i try to rectify it....its more interesting that way rather than fighting anger with anger.....cool huh?....try it urself.....

i told my fren, i think im a slacker, weekends usually i only study abit and like yest after the project case study, i never open my books.....my fren told me, a slacker wont say hes a slacker bcos he wont think about it, hes a slacker.... make sense to me..... a slacker wont worry that he is slacking....right?

shahreil gonna sell me his monitor yeay!.....tt means ill save a little on the new pc, ive told to myself and my mom, tt ill get fathi and ayun a new pc, for their school work and all......end of this year perhaps......ill get those system from sim lim.

i really havent been spending time with my frens lately......and yest i had to turn them down cos i got things to do and we had to go to bras basah to look for books and i promised nani ill fetch her....well last week i killed two birds with one stone, i met my gilera frens first and later at night i spend time with the bb boys at baybeats......sorri guys its not tt i forget bout u guys but now my time is so limited, most of the time im tied down with school and anything related to it... but watever it is, u guys, the bb boys are still close to my heart, ure the bros tt helped me pick myself up during rough times, ure the ones tt accepted me without questions, giving me advices and sometimes encouragements.....love ya guys...if it weren't for you guys i dun think id be where i am now,......just want u guys to know u were the driving force towards me pursuing my dreams......thnks guys......

i gotta study now, probably light my sheesha and enjoy a little mint or peach... haha