i wonder why....

ok liking 2 modules doesnt mean id be a good nurse or ill love nursing whole heartedly but hey, i didnt expect id be so interested in those two modules(anatomy & physiology and psychology) and i wondered why i didnt take up nursing after 'O' levels, why i was so immature to think its a girl thing.....if i were to take up nursing i think, i would be a happy nurse but hey i wouldnt know if id still screw up at tt age.....but at present, i just wanna do well....tts all and i wanna equp myself with the best of knowledge i can attain......

today yet another sacrifice.....my gilera frens wanna meet up, but i just gotta understand wats at lecture....i was satisfied and real tired in the mind...that i slept a whole good 4hours before shahreil called.....i think i overslept and wasted like 2 good hours which could be spent understanding another module....its only now tt i realise time is so precious and i actually feel it when i wasted it..... like the hours slacking last night half the time i tried to study, like the extra uneeded sleep last night, like the time surfing ebay and other online shopping or auctions, like the hour spent on my shisha.....i could go on and on...

tmoro, i gotta meet my baby after a whole week......i miss her, lots and i hope she does too...

oh before i go, heres something tt i learned and found out....phobia/fear is learnt.. and it can be unlearn....in other words it is developed...u can even fear a cute little rabbit or a lovable cat if u developed fear for it from ur childhood....
tt explains adil's fear for cats....hehe....and cockroaches......so actually u can unfear ur fears by simple therapy....but itll take time, since prob for 20 over years u were "taught" and u adapted to fearing it, watever it is...

and believe me, even though my lecturer(a psychologist) who probably believed in things tts only measurable, or in other words can be recorded down or measured do believe in the supernatural, the unmeasurable, ghosts, although up to date there still isnt a way to provide evidence tt it does exist......scary huh... well he was speaking from his experience..... ok gotta go, writing bout it is sending chills to my spine....gnite...