being realistic and.....

understanding....im bored but its the weekends, probably everyone has plans....so i kept quiet, anyways, im not feeling that well, the flu bug struck me AND i have to work later on a SUNDAY. anyway, yani smsed me late last night...sori girl, was asleep liao.

today weak as fatigue took my strength away and the flu bug irritates me with constant sneezing and my nose is behaving as though its a leaking pipe. i have to work in a few hours and with all these, i suddenly start thinking realisticly.....dreaming about mtv is almost not realistic bcos i dun have any experience or design qualifications even though Garcia Tirso offered me freelance if theres a project. My mind was going for the apprentice aircraft technician thingy at SIA Engineering. i hope i land myself an interview and i hope i score....i just realised too, that ryzan, from the gilera gang, is infact an aircraft tech and if he could afford a G5, obviously his pay is pretty huge right now, probably with OTs and watever allowances. I think that goal is more realistic.

why am i still not satisfied with my current pay or job? bcos, wen i settle down if i were to settle down, i do not want my wife to work, i want her to give the kids love, which i lacked off during my childhood cos mom was seperated and she had to work to bring me up. yes, i was a latch-key kid back then. i want my kids to have the full attention like my younger bro n sis is having. i want them to have someone to cultivate their dreams, educate their minds......i gotta have a larger paycheck in order to do so in SG, to be able to afford to let my wife stay home and foot all the expenses and still be able to live a comfortable life.

i gotta go guys iron me uniform...adios